For 22 years, drinking was just part of who I was.
Not a problem. Not a habit I questioned. Just the fabric of how I moved through life. Kegs on the back porch. Beers after an 18-hour day on set. Eight drinks at the cookout because that’s what you did. I was a filmmaker. I drank. Those were both just facts — neutral, unremarkable, woven together.
The loop felt complete. Work, unwind, repeat.
What I didn’t understand was that the unwinding wasn’t working. Every night I drank, my recovery reset. Not dramatically — no collapse, no crisis. Just a quiet, accumulating drain on energy, clarity, and capacity. The baseline kept lowering. I compensated by working harder. The gap between the life I was imagining and the life I was actually living kept growing, and I couldn’t figure out why.
The crack started in a spin class. My coach looked at me — bent over, heart rate in the red — and said what I already knew but hadn’t let myself hear. I wanted progress. I wanted to feel strong, think clearly, do work I was proud of. Alcohol and that version of me couldn’t coexist. The choice was becoming visible.
It took two more years before I made it.
On August 19, 2020, I posted publicly that I was committing to one year without alcohol. No quiet experiment. No “let’s see how this goes.” I told people. I removed the exit.
What happened next surprised me. The mornings came easier. Ideas sharpened. The 4am wake-ups I used to force became something my body wanted. I built a consistent gym practice, 15,000 steps daily, 365 consecutive days of meditation. At 44, I feel stronger and more present than I did in my twenties — not because I became someone new, but because I finally stopped interrupting the person I was becoming.
The work I’d been trying to do my whole career? It started happening. Not despite sobriety. Because of it.
That’s what this is about.
I have read books, listened to podcasts, talked with my therapist — but the one thing missing from my experiences was a 'Josh'. Someone who's been there, on both sides of the drinking, to guide, to encourage, to welcome and to ponder with.
What’s Here
Wherever you are in your relationship with alcohol — questioning it, done with it, or somewhere in between — there’s a place for you here.
If you're not sure where you stand, start here with the assessment. Ten questions. No labels, no diagnosis. I'll review your answers personally and follow up with what I'm seeing — including whether and how I might be able to help.
A month-long guided container for people ready to see what actually changes when alcohol isn’t in the picture. No lifetime commitment required — just 30 days, real support, and building awareness around your relationship with alcohol. This is where most people begin.
For the person who’s ready for something deeper and more personal. A 90-day 1:1 coaching experience built around a single framework: Release → Create → Become. We remove alcohol as the interference and rebuild the conditions where your clarity, energy, and creative capacity become reliable again.
For people who have made the choice — or are making it — and want to build and create alongside others who understand what it cost to get here. A WhatsApp community, weekly reflection prompts, monthly gatherings, and quarterly workshops. Not a recovery program. A room full of people doing the work.
I am a 10-plus-years daily drinker. After 3 months working with Josh, I haven't opened the door of a liquor store in two and a half months — something I wasn't able to achieve for many years. He offered no judgment, no preaching. Just a clear, structured plan with positive creativity.
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If something here landed — if you recognized yourself somewhere in my story — I’d like to hear from you.
Not a sales call. Just a conversation about where you are and whether there’s a way I can help.
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