Disrupt the Pattern helps creative professionals break the alcohol cycle that keeps you from addressing the real areas blocking your creativity—feeling blocked, drained, or hidden. Each episode uses a randomized question generator to spark real-time reflection—no scripts, no planning, just honest exploration of what’s potentially blocking your creative potential.
We start with guided breath work to create space, then explore one randomly selected question about the areas that disrupt creativity: blocked, drained, or hidden. These feelings can show up with anyone; the distinction is when alcohol becomes the escape instead of working with what’s actually happening. Through awareness and action, you’ll learn to disrupt your relationship with alcohol and unlock the creativity that’s been waiting.
The Question:
“Which small desire keeps resurfacing, and how can I honor it today?”
This question revealed Hidden—where creative longings stay buried beneath doubt, and drinking becomes the excuse not to try.
The Connection:
When you have a small desire that keeps resurfacing—that creative project, that thing you want to put out into the world—doubt whispers: “Are you sure? Will people like this? What if it’s not good enough?”
Reaching for a drink feels like comfort in these moments. The pattern becomes: feel the pull of your desire → doubt rises → drink to numb the discomfort → the desire stays hidden → repeat.
The “what ifs” and self-doubt aren’t separate from your drinking habits. They’re directly connected. Alcohol provides temporary relief from the vulnerability of putting yourself out there, but it keeps your creative desires locked away. Your potential stays hidden because the drinking gives you an excuse not to try.
You tell yourself you’ll do it later, when you feel more ready, when you’re more confident. But alcohol supports the cycle of hiding—offering comfort while ensuring you never have to face the discomfort of being seen.
The Action:
“Honor One Small Desire Today”
This isn’t about perfection. This is about starting to disrupt the alcohol pattern by actually honoring that desire that keeps resurfacing—messy, imperfect, and real.
Choose one small desire and take one action toward it today, no matter how messy:
Write the first paragraph of that thing you’ve been thinking about
Share one idea you’ve been keeping to yourself
Start the creative project without worrying if it’s “good enough”
Post something you’ve been holding back out of fear
Take one small step toward putting yourself out there
What This Looks Like for Alcohol-Free Creativity
Permission
You don’t need to be perfect to begin
Messy is part of the process—embrace it
“You’re doing a damn good job” becomes your mantra instead of self-doubt
You give yourself permission to try without needing alcohol to soften the edges
Practice
Putting yourself out there is practice, not performance
Each attempt teaches you something, even the “failed” takes
You learn that the discomfort isn’t as bad as you thought
The reward is in the doing, not in being perfect
The Result:
Be curious. What happens when you honor that small desire instead of numbing it? What does it feel like to put yourself out there without alcohol as a buffer? What discomfort comes up that usually triggers the need to hide?
This is how we break alcohol patterns: By facing the vulnerability. By choosing to honor our desires even when they feel scary. By realizing that putting yourself out there is actually a reward.
When you remove alcohol, you can actually work with the discomfort instead of hiding from it. You grow and learn from it. And ultimately you decide: Alcohol doesn’t serve me anymore. I don’t need it.
That’s a really awesome feeling. This is how you unlock your creative potential.
Reveal Your Area
Are you experiencing feeling Blocked, Drained, or Hidden?
Understanding which area you’re stuck in—and how alcohol is keeping you there—is the first step to breaking free.
Each week, a new question. A new area to explore. See you in the next episode.
